February 2012
117 posts
I feel like I’ve surpassed many of my friends in terms of maturity. Sure I goof around and think dumb jokes are funny, but it’s different than that. I work full time, I manage my money well and I don’t rely on my parents for anything. Given, most of them are a year or two or even several years younger than me, but it’s like once they turned 17 they just never aged mentally from there. It’s like...
i really hope this doesnt sound mean. this is just...
the other day, my guy friend who i know likes me, asked me to go to see him sing at a valentines day concert at our school. well he got on stage, and begins singing his song. it was terrible. and people were laughing. and afterwards, he came up to me and said the song was for me. i was so embarrassed. but i also feel really bad because i know he really likes me. but i dont like him.
(can i please...
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I have lost my faith in humanity because of you. And I don’t want to live in a world where people can do things like that to each other. I wish I could reclaim my life.
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Sometimes I hate being the one who listens. I listen to everyone else and I never know what to say. I feel like I’m losing myself because of it.
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People tell me that I’m way too young to make such a prediction, but I know it’s true. I take the term “forever alone” seriously; I will never be pretty and I will never be loved romantically. And I hate when people tell me otherwise, because I know they’re lying. Being ugly is a side effect of loneliness.
Anonymous asked: I used to be a straight A student. I had dreams to go to an elite college. I used to be able to pull of anything and get As no matter what. Now, I'm stressed, overwhelmed, constantly worried about grades, and just hopeless. I see my peers just doing so well, having so much fun, getting As and I'm working my ass off but I still feel like I'm falling short and not doing the best I...
Anonymous asked: i think i love you. But i really dont want too. you're one of my best friends and i dont wanna lose that.
Anonymous asked: I'm a lesbian but I fell in love with my guy friend. I poured my heart out to him a few nights ago and we are going to give our relationship a shot. He was kind of hesitant but I've never been so sure of anything in my life. I guess I'm just afraid he's not nearly as happy as I am about this. But I just hope it all works out. I love him so much.
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My best friend took an extended hiatus from tumblr with out telling me. I feel completely abandoned and alone.
Anonymous asked: I found out last year that one of my friends is anorexic and cuts herself and does a couple of drugs. She's mentioned to me about some of her previous suicide attempts. She also seems to be progressively getting worse. The other day she took LSD at school and was tripping out in front of everyone. I'm not even that close friends with her so it seems a little "out of place" to...
Anonymous asked: Last night, I purged for the first time in six months.
Anonymous asked: I got a tattoo like 2 years ago, & I don't want anyone to see it. Idk how to get rid of it, and it's killing me. I would really like to dress like a hipster and show off my body but this tattoo makes me so uncomfortable. I hate my body
Anonymous asked: If I really felt the urge and had the means, I would rob a bank to help my family. What few I have are the only ones that really mean anything to me, and those few deserve to actually reach their dreams even if its possibly at risk. It makes me hurt a little inside to think of the possibility of that never happening.
Anonymous asked: I have recently discovered how bad my Bondage Fetish has gotten, I don't know where it came from original but recently I saw a GIF set of the two main characters from supernatural tied up and I immediately started searching for a way to watch the episodes, just so I can fantasise. I'm getting worried.
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I purposely tag my hate just to be an asshole. I’m not even sorry.
Anonymous asked: It just so happens that my favourite celebrity isn't super famous. And it just so happens that I've met him a ton of times. There was a time I met him... I had just turned eighteen. He made a joke about how he had "popped my cherry" since this was my first gig as a legal adult. And ever since then, it doesn't matter to me that he has a girlfriend. Or that I can't have...
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I’m a twisted person with a twisted mind. Every situation I face gets absolutely disorted by my imagination, I always think of everything in a sexualized way and I just feel like a total creep. I never told anyone about this. I’m female. And not even 15. Thank god the person to whom I look up to seemed to have the same thoughs, but he put those things to a good use. He was an artist....
Anonymous asked: I wish I could be in a romantic relationship with the boy that I like.
Anonymous asked: Every single time I fall in love with a girl, and I get the courage to talk to her, she admits that she's fallen in love with someone else right before she gets the chance. I'm worried that I'll always be too late.
Anonymous asked: When I'm around my friends, I sometimes feel left out because they're mostly juniors and sophomores in band and I'm a senior not in band. Whenever they go on band trips, I feel lonely because nearly all of my friends are gone. Also, I'm afraid that I'll lose contact with these friends after I graduate from high school, and that's one of my biggest fears.
Anonymous asked: my fucking parents treat me like shit...on my own birthday they didn't even want to spend time with me, and I got accepted into university and they didn't congratulate me or anything, they said "make your average higher because your entrance scholarship isn't good enough". they never take me with them anywhere they go, they never ask how my day was, & they'd...
Anonymous asked: My best friend has just crushed my dreams once again. The first was saying i could not do acting cause there are always people better than you. Second just now saying I could not go out with this guy and said "lets be real". Well you know what I can not be real cause that guy has just changed the way I view every guy thats who I will compare guys to. Also when I am acting I will not...
Anonymous asked: I recently started smoking and I hate myself for it, I only smoke a few times a month when I get super stressed. My parents expect me to be perfect. Like I should be some sort of doll or something. Smoking calms my nerves but at the same time it's a secret "fuck you," to my parents. I wish they'd just accept me as I am.
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MY LIFE IS A LIVING WASTE.
Anonymous asked: I've pretty much alienated 90% of the people I know at school with no chance of getting to know any of them better. I'll just forever be known as that mean boy who hates everyone and everything.
Anonymous asked: I'm afraid to tell anyone at my school (other than my best friend) that I like Lady Gaga because I'm afraid that everyone will start rumors and harass me constantly. I know that I shouldn't have to keep something like that a secret, but a lot of the people at my school are annoyingly closeminded and I hate it.
Anonymous asked: I've considered killing someone before.
Anonymous asked: I feel like a terrible person because I've told several people online whom I have never met in real life that I am guy, yet I haven't told my best friend, even though she'll completely support me regardless of my sexuality.
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Barely a week ago I’d come to realize that I was heavily emotionally abused in middle school, from the high-level programs that I took.
I guess it was easier to forget the academic torment when I was busy being abandoned by most of my friends.
Confession tumblrs are better therapists than the ones my parents pay 200 bucks a session for.
Anonymous asked: Thanks to Tumblrs introducing me to MapCrunch I have learnt better orienteering skills than I learnt in the Boy Scouts.
Anonymous asked: My roommate is one of the most generous persons I have ever met, but also one of the most annoying. I just cannot stand how EXCESSIVELY she talks, makes random sound effects, or snaps her fingers/claps her hands/etc.
Anonymous asked: As a psychology major, my parents insist I'm just being a hypochondriac because I think I have something wrong with me. But I really want to try to speak with a professional, because I think they're in denial about their straight-A student having problems or sometimes having suicidal thoughts. I may not be a professional, but I'm pretty sure I have borderline personality disorder.
Anonymous asked: I've happily been in a relationship with the man of my dreams for the last 2 years. We talk about marriage and children all the time. We plan on getting married in the next couple years. I can't bring myself to tell him or anyone that I'm probably infertile. It kills me to think that I can't give him a baby. I just WANT a baby so badly that the thought of not being able to have...
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I’ve watched both my mother and sister try to kill themselves several times over my life. I’ve seen the two of them be checked into mental facilities. I’ve watched friends, family, people I love try and kill themselves or I’ve been there to talk them off the edge. I’ve always prided myself on being the normal one, I feel hypocritical giving people advice, telling them...
Anonymous asked: I like him too much. Like, obsessively too much. But I don't wanna freak him out. So I try to get him to talk to me, but, that rarely happens. Why am I so weak?
Anonymous asked: That depressing moment when you realize your crush has a different sexual orientation. Don't get me wrong, I support gay rights... I just don't like how I keep developing crushes on guys that are gay, because I can never be with them.
Anonymous asked: I say I'm always there for you because I am. I can't read minds all the time, especially if I don't see you very often. If you need me, tell me. We're best friends. I don't want that to change.
Anonymous asked: My best friend is against gay marriage, slightly homophobic, and afraid of people with disabilities. I have completely different views, yet we've been best friends for years.
Anonymous asked: i eat too much. i'm 14 and i weigh 110 pounds, which isn't a lot, but i still eat way too much. i'm considering becoming bulimic just because i don't want to become any fatter. i'm not good enough for anybody and i feel like if i weighed less then everything would be better.
Anonymous asked: I just realized that I let someone I could love forever go. I let him go so easily. Never letting him knowing what I thought about him. Even though we both felt something both to scared to say. Now he is gone and I am forced to forget about him, but I cannot, how can I when every time I hear my favorite song your face flashes before my eyes. I love you, and you will never know. I hope I will see...
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I can't find the words to say Goodbye.
There’s this guy I like for 3 years. He’s my classmate and friend. He died a month ago. He’s only 19. He never knew that I have feelings for him. And I regret it so much for not telling him :( I know that I should let this go because I know there is nothing left for me to hold on to. But it’s really hard. There are times when i’ll suddenly cry, remembering him, his...
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here i am again, trying my best and failing at it.
fuck him. fuck him for leaving me and avoiding me for 3 months and finally decide to talk to me and act like nothing happened. and then ignore me for a whole year and then come back, make me fall for him, and leave. again. and then him fucking up everything. getting a girlfriend. flirting with these stupid bitches. he knows i see it. fuck me. fuck me for believing his fucking lies. waiting for him...
Anonymous asked: i am 15 and have been in a steady relationship with the same boy for around two years. we've only been sexually intimate for the past 6 months, and have made special guidelines with his parents about doing stuff like that. we haven't done anything past oral, which i'm proud of, but this month was crazily hectic because my period was ridiculously late. i got worried to the point of...
Anonymous asked: as it turns out, my mother was raped when she was in college and had to get an abortion. this made me feel disgusting; like i was some immature, selfish loser. what if i were pregnant? would i get an abortion, as my mother had after she was raped in college? i thought about telling my dad, who had no idea i was being sexual in the first place. it made me want to puke. now it is three weeks later,...
Anonymous asked: i let mom kill herself and didn't call anyone to save her.
Anonymous asked: I started eating again because of you. I didn't think that anyone could ever make me feel beautiful like you do. I was striving to be perfect, but now I just want to make myself healthy so that I can be with you forever. I'm perfect for YOU and now, that's all that matters.
Anonymous asked: Even though I want a good Christian boyfriend like Tim Tebow, I want my boyfriend to lose his cool and beat the hell out of my brother when he finds out that my brother molested me.
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In general, to a lot of people, I have a really good life. And they’re right, I’m enrolled in a good university, and I can choose to do anything I want in my life. i have a best-friend-relationship with my mom and dad. I grew up in a good neighborhood in a nice house, with my family and my grandparents. I go to church every Sunday and have a “good girl” reputation. But...
Anonymous asked: Now that my boyfriend and I have gotten more intimate, I can't masturbate because it makes me feel guilty.
Anonymous asked: if i was a boy, i can tell i would be gay. but i'm a girl and i can't see myself being lesbian. sometimes i wish i was a gay boy. i don't know why.
